♥ Thursday, September 21, 2006 ♥
6:04:00 PM
i tink i've flunk almost every subj .
the so far still okay wan seems to b languange only .
emath paper one out .
expected higher .
mus b due to silly errors again .
=(
i tink i dun even need to try for the JC thing alr .
cuz is sure like 2o over points .
my hope for prelims is not to b over too much .
less than 23 will b good .
ytd nearly got buang by a lorry .
it's a LORRY u know ..
i jus got the feeling to cross the road
very suddenly .
and i did without really noticing abt wad was around me .
thank god the driver stop jus in time .
or else tt'll b the end of me alr .
clap if u wan to .
but there isnt a need to moan
cuz i'm not dead yet .
to think i didnt think about my frens .
neither did i think about my sisters and my parents .
it was HIM HIM and HIM i thought about at the point .
why why why ?
i shouldnt be thinking on this !
no no no .
it 's freaking impossible la .
mayb it's b cuz i noe all my frens and family can live their lives happily even without my existance . they have their own group of frens , their clicks . i bet they will stil b okay even though i die .
but doesnt this thought includes YOU too ?!
esther's words are logical actually .
i jus realised recently :
i can comfort ppl when they are down .
but when the same thing happens to me ,
i grew all tensed up and shivered up like a plant tt lacks water and nutrients .
only certain ppl words will remain stuck inside me .
for example , like chua .
but i cant understand y i'm showing attitude to her .
i dun mean it .. really .
but what's done have been done .
but i got to admit it's really sweet of him to send me to tuition
now gg tuition seemed to b something like a chore .
the feeling of loneliness .
